I need what the world can't give me..

I'm such a boing person. Sometimes I don't always have the confidence to speak what is on my mind. I feel so many things and so I get confused. I'm sad and happy all the time. Being real is important to me nowadays. But I don't know what that is. I am content living my life day to day.. just getting by... absorbing everything and learning and taking those moments to look up at the sky. Life is hard. Most of the time I feel as though I'm losing. But I'm trying at least.